when seeking guidance

Everyone has an opinion.  Everyone has their truth. Everyone has their beliefs.  This includes me, however, I spent most of my life acquiescing my perceptions, even as my gut was yelling, “wait.  what?  whoa!”.  If you were older than me, I would concur.  If you had more money than me, I would conform.  If you had a college education, I would concede. This behavior is not foreign to most women, especially those brought up in the last 500 years or so.  And it is not particularly a womens issue only.  Many men grow up not trusting their guts and consequently live in doubt of their judgment.
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Once we learn to trust we can start the work of listening to our guts and make choices accordingly.  As the Luckiest Woman in the World I can say that I have gathered a tribe of intensely strong and loyal friends who have my back and know that I have theirs.  This is lifesaving stuff.  No, I am not getting dramatic here… lifesaving is true.

Still, there are those who, for reasons I will never know, do the opposite.  They are deceptive.  They are manipulative.  They are sneaky.  Just when I feel like I am standing on solid ground one of these people shows up and pulls out the rug.  After I beat myself up for not seeing it coming, I spend a few hours writing a script in my head to confront the infraction and heal the damage done.  This is where I will most likely always get stuck.  Some people don’t want to confront the infractions.  They don’t want to think about why they did what they did or said what they said.  They don’t see the damage they have done and they certainly don’t want to take any responsibility.  That has left me feeling super frustrated and various degrees of angry.